I thought that I had what it took to make it through BUDS. There was no question in my mind.
I knew that I would never quit. They would have to kick me out by some other means (which they did but that is another story).
But after the second week I began to have doubts.
I remember saying to myself “Dang, this is way harder than I thought”.
The overall work in BUDS creeps up on you as you get more and more tired each day.
I got to Hell Week in February and really had doubts.
But I wanted it really bad — I had my own personal reasons to finish the drill.
Got to Hell Week and one night we went down to the water after dinner.
What I saw next was about to make me quit.
They lined us up on what is called the “Steel Pier” and stripped down to our skivvies.
I also saw all of the instructors lined up with hooded warm sweatshirts on.
The BUDS Doctor was also there so I knew it was going to be bad.
We would get in the cold water for a couple of minutes and then get out and lay on the Steel Pier for a few minutes.
I have never been so cold in my whole life as shivered and convulsed on the verge of quitting.
I used every cold water immersion tip I could think of and even made up a few that night. Breath deep. Think warm thoughts.
The only thing that kept me going were my teammates and my inner belief that I could make it. That was my reason.
I also had realized that I was young and very dumb and needed to be humble. At that point I was now ready to learn.
What is your reason to push through? What keeps you hanging on? What is your ultimate goal?
Email or text me and let me know (yes; i try to answer all of them).
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